Post by mandymo on Jan 24, 2009 7:14:02 GMT -5
Hi, sorry to post a depressing postive just had enough and dont know who iam sometimes, ive got no direction nothing to look forward to, feel crap ..and am getting really depressed again..
I was told monday before last by the pituitary specialist that she was going to call me personaly to advise me of what the next step is. She said she was going to contact barts and get my mri and discuss me in thier meeting..
they just dont care they tell you thinngs to worry you and then just leave you hanging not knowing whats going on..
She said I have either Premature Ovarian Failure or a pit problem and i havent heard since apart from Pals told me that they will be calling me early this week...nope still not called..
I went to my Doctors Thursday and Barts had written to them (prior to my submitting hormone test reults to him) she wouldnt let meread all the letter i just got a sneaky glimpse and he mentiones testing me for Lyme disease and Lupus..
Ive got a positive ana 1:80 speckeled patten but have been tested for lupus and its negative. So I dont get why he wants to test me again for Lupus unless he asnt aware ive been tested for it. Lyme is a tick bite I have travelled to cuba, central america unless something did bite me..
BUt my hormones are being investigated and this letter was sent to my Doctors before he had the recent test results..
I am going to call the hospital on monday I am so fed up, lonely, need somewhere to live ...
The guy I had met was a physco aswell thats not helped, he was shouting at me saying nothing in my life is normal and moaning that I cant eat like a NORMAL person ..and moaning Iam tiered and moaning wheni had a bad belly..i think he has made me feel even worse about whats going on with me..people like to make you feel worse..
Sorry I am just so fed up with it all I dont think people would notice if i just gave up. Family and friends dont want to know and get sick of me talking about it..my sisters due to have a 4th baby in two weeks and people cant understand why i get upset..and a bit jealous ..coz they dont understand how i feel ..
Sorry does anyone else feel like this...
xx